pick me! pick me!!

some people believe that you grow out of caring what people think. either they're wrong, or i'm not grown up. both could be right ;)

today i ran into a person from my past who is in the majority of all my high school memories. back then, i idolized her. she had the adolescent "it" factor, from the way she looked to her astonishing social circle. popular and attractive, she was "that girl" that everyone immediately adored. and i was lucky enough to be her friend! she shaped my fashion sense and threw parties everyone wanted to be at. she's the reason i fell in love with designer purses and perfume.

our friendship was a little lopsided, but i never minded. she was four years older than me, but she never treated me like a baby. however, i couldn't relate to the life experiences she had because i hadn't reached them yet. she married young, right out of high school, and moved away. we lost touch as she became absorbed in her new life.

looking back, it's embarassing how much i wanted her approval.

today was the first time in years that i had seen her, and she's still "that girl". she's still super-likeable, with a handsome, hardworking husband and good-natured, respectful children. i wasn't jealous, but suddenly i felt like i was back in high school, wanting to feel her acceptance.

i guess there will always be people in our lives who make us revert....